It is with excitement that Jay and I can announce that we welcomed our Daughters and little sisters for Xavier, Safa Amber (3lbs7oz) and Romi Sunni (4lbs5oz) to the world today at 6:18pm.

After a bout of illness Jay underwent an emergency C-section earlier. The girls are in NICU undergoing tests and getting some help but appear to be well. Jay is in ICU however after a well deserved rest she should make a full recovery. 

Thank you to all our friends and family who have helped us during the last few months, it has been hard but we appreciate what you have all done for us and we cannot wait for you to share our daughters with you.

Leo, Jay, Xavier, Safa & Romi

 

As my title states its time to make an announcement, no I’ve not won the lottery, got a place on deal or no deal and no the babies haven’t arrived (thankfully).

Since amber passed away I haven’t been in the public domains such as twitter and Facebook as much, there are many reasons to this which many of you know and some of you don’t.
As a family we rally together and spent a lot of time together doing things families do like having Sunday dinner and doing things with our son! Leo and I are pregnant again and cannot wait until July to welcome our twins to the world making Xavier a big brother!

I kept a secret, one amber made myself and our family keep until the time was right and that time was now!

While Amber was sick she kept a diary of everything she did, all her feelings and she didn’t hold back! Whilst documenting her illness on paper she also filmed her life every day with the help of me.

Before working at E! I spent many years straight out of working at sky with an amazing production team putting together documentaries for the channel and others. Amber asked me to also film her from the perspective of a family member so that regardless of the ending she could show the world what life during and after cancer is like.

I have managed to put in many many hours of work whilst resting on the project filming and editing a project as per Amber’s request. After meetings last week today I finally got the news that a production company has made a offer which as a family we have accepted to fund the continuation of the project and eventually put it out to the world!

It’s been an emotional and heartbreaking process which is still being documented with the whole family especially Fiona continuing to make Amber’s dreams come true.

Money is going to be donated to Amber’s chosen charity from this project in the hope to help many other people who Are sadly in the same or similar situation to Amber.

I want to take this opportunity to apologise and thank the special friends and family I know personally and via twitter for continually supporting me even when I’m not around much, the messages of support help get me through many days! I apologise to those friends who I’ve neglected over the last 6 months, it’s been hard but thank you for always being there.

I can’t wait to share the work with you all.

Just over a year ago i had my son Xavier, he was a premie baby but we were lucky to have him healthy and safe. After being home for a few days i met this awesome guy called Dan (@Moosola) though the fantastic TV chef Stacie Stewart.
After talking over a few 140ch tweets i learned that Dan and his Wife had also just had a son only 2 days before Xavier entered the world.

A year ago next week my beautiful sister Amber got told she had 6 months to live because the cancer she was fighting was just too strong for her. Amber at that point decided that with 6 months left she was going to leave having giving back and decided to run a half marathon.
Our friends and family were generous and donated a lot of time and money as did many many strangers on twitter, many of which are now close friends of mine. One of these people was Dan, he generously from his own pocked topped up Ambers Just Giving page to reach her goal – something i know she never ever forgot.

A lot of people reading this will remember Amber as the lively, positive person that she never failed to be, many of you won’t have had that amazing opportunity.
Dan and amber i think grew a special bond, i would see them tweet back and forth about travelling, food, football, children and marriage to name but a few, it was always nice to see them in deep conversation.

Dan sadly lost his father at a young age from cancer and he is one of only a few people that knew how it felt to be a  close family member watching the illness devour someone that you love, he many of times would send a message just to say he was thinking of us or would ask us how we all were baring up.
One day i got a message from him saying the following “You know how i am doing Jogle 2012? How do you think amber would feel if i raised some money in her name too?” That was it, i knew that Amber had done something special not only had amber raised £9k off her own back she had infiltrated peoples kindness in the most natural of ways to help raise awareness and money for the cause.

This brings me to now. Dan and i now have 1 year old son’s he a beautiful 5 year old daughter and my husband and i with twins on the way, sadly Amber isn’t here but this is where everyone reading this are now involved.

Amber agreed with Dan to let him raise some money for MacMillan Cancer Support, a charity that meant that Amber got her last wish to be at home over her last few weeks. Dan is raising cash and awareness for another two charities over the same event all of which I’m going to explain.

Lands End to John O’Groats, thats 900 miles of road at least 5 days of rain a serious amount of chafing in the crotch area and some serious leg power! Dan is going to cycle this distance for his selected charities and we want YOU to help out!
We all know times are tough and you don’t have to donate money (however even a small amount would be nice) but you could don some lycra (optional) and join in on the cycle!

The distance has been split into daily amounts but don’t fear you don’t have to do it all the itinerary is as follows

John O Groats to Brora…  63 miles Sat 26th May
Brora to Inverness……       55 miles Sun 27th May
Inverness to Fort William.. 56 miles Mon 28th May
Fort William to Crianlarrich 57 miles Tues 29th May
Crianlarrich  to South Glasgow 66 miles Weds 30th May
South Glasgow to Gretna…..75 miles Thurs 31st May
Gretna to Kendal……….    54 miles Fri 1st June
Kendal to Wigan………..   60 miles Sat 2nd June
Wigan to Shrewsbury……64 miles Sun 3rd June
Shrewsbury to Malvern….56 miles Mon 4th June
Malvern to Bath……….      59 miles Tues 5th June
Bath to Honiton……….      62 miles Weds 6th June
Honiton to Launceston….59 miles Thurs 7th June
Launceston to Newquay….40 miles Fri 8th June
Newquay to Land’s End….43 miles Sat 9th June

Do you live near any of these places and would be wiling to jump on that bike for support – even a mile?

On a personal note this is for my sister, as a family we are doing everything we can and are donning our best gym gear and doing a mile (i shall be in the car as at around 32 weeks with twins i won’t be putting this butt on a bike seat)

Details of dans chosen 2 charities and why can be found here http://johnogroatstolandsend2012.blogspot.co.uk/2011/07/3-charities.html

but please check out the whole site http://johnogroatstolandsend2012.blogspot.co.uk

If you wish to make a donation please look here http://www.justgiving.com/Daniel-Cornwell0

The kindness and generosity of one man is keeping the memory or Amber alive, if you can even spare £1 please consider donating it to this amazing cause.

If you want more information on the event follow Dan and i on twitter @Moosola @Jhalmitt and we will answer you as quickly as possible.

On a personal note, i know that this generosity on Dans part meant the world to Amber, it also does myself and all my family. Dan you are a legend and I’m glad to call you a friend, Amber thought the world of you and i know she will be with you in spirit!

Join in if you can, i cannot stress what an amazing time you will have being involved!

There will be more on this subject over the coming weeks and months so keep your eyes open for all the updates.

Jay x

So, after my midi rant yesterday i got a lot of positiveness from the blog but i got a bit of backlash too.

I want to clarify that i don’t discriminate or judge anyone on their size or any other part of their life. If you read the blog as its red you will see that i say the female in question is lovely but she just had a lack of knowledge on how to eat better!

A couple of people asked about my working lunches and daily intake, today i ate the following.

Breakfast: porridge with blackberries with water. when i got to work i had a starbucks americano with 2x splenda schets and skimmed milk.

No mid day snack.

Lunch: around 1-1:30 i had a salad & vegetable filled wholemeal pitta and a portion of dole pineapple chunks in juice.

Around 4pm i snacked on some red bell pepper and celery

Dinner: Oven roasted duck, steamed vegetables brown rice on the side.

Just now i had some organic roasted chicken (approx 20g) on seeded grain bread with no butter and light mayo.

Throughout the day i drank water and a pint of lightly diluted vimto.

A few people were intrigued at how i put together my lunch with all the salad and vegetables… well its easy.

Open up your brown pitta and lightly spread with low fat organic mayonnaise, top with thinly sliced red bell pepper.
Shred some oven roasted chicken or grilled chicken breast. Remember you don’t need thick slices or to have it covering the whole base.
Peen and thinly slice cucumber, you can do this any way you please, i like doing it length ways like this as it holds the sandwich together more and prevents it from sliding around.
Top with Watercress!
Close the sandwich up then wrap in tin foil or cling film.
If you plan ahead you can do all your chopping at one time, put your remaining pepper and vegetables in a tub and you can make your lunch in 2 minutes. Doing this also means you have a healthy snack on hand and will stop you going for the cookie jar!
If you can find ripe avocado use that in replace of mayo and if you don’t want meat use mongtout in replace of it…… a crunchy and refreshing addition.
If anyone has any questions pop a comment at the bottom or Dm me on twitter and i will answer them anon in a new post soon.
Enjoy….

Well, its been a while since i blogged and a lot has happened.
One big thing is that Leo and i are over the moon to day that our effort to get pregnant worked and Xavier will be getting 2 (yes i said 2) new siblings this summer.

I am sure you all or most of you know that i am a careful eater, i can spend a week without eating meat but i always ensure i eat from all the food groups. My habits don’t change when I’m pregnant however i do make a bigger effort to eat lean meats and the odd steak for iron.

Today i went out for a pub lunch with a large group of friends and family, my cousin brought his new (well 6 month) girlfriend, it was the first time i had met her and she was lovely. I don’t care about peoples size or job everyone is their own and I’m not to judge but just to give you some background, she would be a size 16 to 18, shorter than me maybe around 5ft 3″bubbly girl, honestly i can’t stress how nice a girl she was.
As a group when we have these get togethers we all go for the 3 courser, its a treat for us like it would be anyone. We all ordered our meals, after carefully studying the menu i decided on what i was having, to start i had mackerel on a bed of rocket and watercress (minus the butter dressing), for my main i had grilled chicken scallop with a mango and assorted tomato salsa with steam wilted bok choi and mangetout salad, for desert leo and i shared a portion of mixed italian style ice cream. Half way through the main my cousins girlfriend mentioned that her new years resolution was to “finally loose some weight…. but regardless of what i do i just can’t loose it….. how do you stay so slim jay? you have a baby and your pregnant how do you do it?”.
At this moment i had to take a breath before i spoke, i watched her eat breaded mushrooms oozing garlic butter and oil from the cooking process, she was driving and necked 2 glasses of full fat coke, for a main she had a piece of beer battered fish the length of my arm and a pile of chips even leo and i wouldn’t finish at home and for dessert she had ordered Irish Cream cheesecake. I told her calmly and to not sound horrible that i eat well and i work out when i can and when i do work out thats when i treat myself to things like ice-cream and cookies.

During the conversation we were talking about work and how to eat well. She like me sits a lot, i can spend 8 hours in the editing room reviewing work and this is where i found a huge difference in both of us.
She said to me “Eating healthy is so expensive its just not feasible for me”, so i compared her shopping to mine and we put it into practice and went to tesco after the meal and bought what we would normally do for our lunches.

I spent £18.72 she spent a staggering £33.11. When i shop for lunch i shop for both Leo and i, she buys for herself and this shocked me. How can healthy eating be expensive when your spending that??

My basket contained the following – 10 apples, 4 pears, 1x bag of grapes, 3x avocado’s, 2 hearts of celery, 5 red peppers, a bag of watercress, 2x bags mixed salad (the carrot, cabbage sort) green beans, 1x cucumber, a whole organic chicken and 10 wholemeal pita bread.

Her basket contained – 2 packets processed ham, 1 loaf thick slice white bread, full milk yogurts, 4x dole pineapple in jelly tubs, pack of breaded chicken pieces, 2x six pack walkers crisps, 5 Kellogg’s breakfast bars, 1x super noodles and 1 box cuppa soup.

And that my friends is why you can’t lose weight!

I recently found out that in a standard slice of white bread there is up to 30 teaspoons of sugar, 2 slices of bread with butter, ham, mayo and a packet of crisps at lunch can be the same or higher calorie content as a portion of grilled chicken breast and steamed vegetables with brown rice!

It still amazes me that will the amount of money that TV companies put into producing and airing shows like the biggest loser as an example or the millions that the government spend on publishing healthy eating guides and hiring dieticians and there are still people out there that “can’t” loose weight regardless of what they do!

i don’t believe in God but i always remember a sister in my school teaching us home economics and she said “God created potatoes he didn’t create crisps or chips, god created grains and nuts, he didn’t create icing and chocolate”. Really what she was saying was, the earth gives us all this amazing food yet we eat things we make with chemicals and process which ruin the goodness!

If we had to go back 3000 years we would burn 600-1000 calories going out and growing, hunting or sourcing our food, the only difference now is that we work and go out and just buy this food which really isn’t good for us!

What really got my goat today wasn’t my cousins girlfriend, because if I’m honest I’m a bit proud she admitted her naivety to food and nutrition but left with skills to shop and eat better, the person that got my goat was the woman i heard say the following – “I started a diet this new year as my resolution was to lose weight but i thought id have a treat” and with that in her basket was chocolate, a cheese crust stuffed pizza, crisps and dip – she is 8 days into the new year its not looking goof for her!

I don’t know why it gets my goat so much but it does, its not hard to know that that massive bag of doritos your eating is going to put weight on your bones, as well as making you thirsty so then you drink a bottle of coke which adds more and more on its a never ending chain – but it is if you just say no!

If anyone is reading this and thinking “thats me with the doritos, white bread and breaded mushrooms” then read my other food blogs. I had to learn from somewhere i wasn’t always good or this slim, it is like a plaster, rip the sugar off and the pounds will fall off!!!

I would like to start this post by saying a huge thank you to every single person who has sent either myself, Leo, Fiona or Mum messages of condolence over the 24 hours. Each of us is so overwhelmed by your support and the beautiful and kind things that you have said about Amber, as a family it is beautiful to read the things that you are saying about her.
Many of you have said how Amber has helped you with medical issues or has just listened when you needed an ear or has offered you one of the extensive library of quotes that she knew.

When she was told that her illness was terminal she never cried or moaned, there was no anger on her part but instead chose not to dwell and to enjoy the last of her time by making light of the situation. Amber was quick to inform me that when i was to write about her i was to make her sound good, even on Friday night when we had a ladies night with her close friends and family she was telling her best friend to and i quote “kick her little skinny excuse for a ass if she doesnt make me sound like a saint!” For those who knew even just a little part of her you will know that i dont need to make her sound like one, as she was.

Many of you have also mentioned her fighting spirit, even a week ago she and i were sitting at the hospital whilst she endured a last ditch attempt to beat the illness, she defeated the odds on so many level s with her fighting spirit and even on Saturday night when we were told she wouldnt make it till morning……she made it to the afternoon.

We havent just lost a sister, daughter, wife or best friend but everyone has lost a inspirational person a person who selfishly gave up her time and knowledge to a number of people not just in the 14 months of her illness but from childhood.

The funeral director asked me to pick my three favorite memories of Amber, these i want to share.

1: Watching her being born on the kitchen floor. When she tells the story of Mums labour to people she makes it sound like the birth scene from The Lion King – trust me it wasnt that pretty.

2: Her being there with Leo and I at the birth of our son in March even though she was desperately ill, and mopping my husbands brow because he was having a “moment”.

3: Walking her down the isle at her wedding with our Mum, and seeing her truly happy as she married her perfect match.

Amber had a fear of being forgotten and by the messages and emails coming in from all over i think it is safe to say she will never be forgotten.

At her request there will only be family flowers at the Funeral as in her words “they are a waste of money – they just die”. For those online and our friends a abroad who have asked about donations we have set up In Memory Donation on her behalf with the charity of her choice, one which is close to her heart.

We also ask for you to have a look at www.jogle2012.com a friend Dan is cycling the length of the country raising money for three different charities and he is beautifully including Amber in his en-devour. You dont have to give money but please have a look at his cycle schedule and even if you can only ride your bike along with him for a few miles please do so, as a family we are helping to support him and we will be joining him and are honored to be included.

There was one last thing that Amber requested me to tell you all.

Amber was not shy in admitting her ignorance when it came to being sick. She found the lump a few months before she became ill and in turn got the diagnosis that she had cancer. She took it for granted that she just had a cyst and kept thinking she was too busy to go to the Dr to get checked out, which is crazy as she spent up to 14 hours a day working in a hospital.
It was important to her that people learn from her mistake, take a small period of time to go and get yourself checked, learn how to feel for changes yourself and make sure you dont put it off – if she had gone when she first found the lump its highly likely she would be here with us now and leading a normal life. Its a regret that she carried with her.

Once again thank you for the kind words and the generosity that you have offered us all at this time. We plan to thank you all individually but at the moment its just not possible for us to do but know we will read what you say and we all appreciate every text, email, DM, tweet FB message etc

With Thanks,

Jay, Fiona, Lanya, Leo & Xavier

“pride

[prahyd]. Show IPA noun, verb, prid·ed, prid·ing.

–noun

1.

a high or inordinate opinion of one’s own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.
2.

the state or feeling of being proud.
3.

a becoming or dignified sense of what is due to oneself or one’s position or character; self-respect; self-esteem.”
I dont hide the fact that my little sister is my hero and those of you who know her whether it be in real life, twitter life or any other form knows already why i call her that.
On Sunday past my sister, her partner, best friend, my husband and our mother ran the Asics British 10k London Run to raise money for the charity Marie Curie. The modest amount of £500 was the goal number to be raised and what of that that was raised was to be doubled by a kind family friend of ours and his business partner. Thanks to the generosity of many people on Twitter the amount was 80% raised within 3 weeks of opening the first giving page with a special thanks to Vicky and Dan for the tireless hounding of celebrities and for their donations!
Amazingly thanks to the generosity online and the generosity of our friends and family who were hounded at family barbeques and parties and to the doubling my sister raised over £9000 come the day of the run! Since then people have continued to donate and the total today stands at £10,087 – one hell of an achievement.
A lot of you however dont know the full story of the time around the run and since.
My sister has terminal cancer, but you wouldnt think it to talk to her. I have never in my life met anyone who has a positivity level like her everything has a silver lining regardless to how bad things may be.
During a conversation with a friend who was expressing her concern over my sister partaking in such a challenge whilst not being in full health she simply replied “Whats the worst that will happen, it kills me?”. During the hardest time in her life she exuded selflessness from the early stage of terminal diagnosis and has no intention in not participating in this run regardless of her health at the time.
The day before the run Amber was suffering from exhaustion. The night before my mum and my sister in laws parents held a large surprise party for the two of them to celebrate their marriage for friends and family who cannot attend the official ceremony next month. Amber danced from the moment the music started till it finished on a euphoric high of having all their close friends and family all together in the one place some of them she hadnt seen since she became ill last year.
Come the Sunday (day of the rest) my sister was clearly still exhausted, having arrived to the race early she managed to find herself a spot on the ground amongst the crowd and napped before the race started. A lot of people in her life including those around her that day told her not to partake in the race for her own sake but there was no way she wasnt going to do this race! The whole way through my sisters illness she has pushed herself to prove people wrong, she is a fighter to the core.
During the race i took my baby son to meet a friend for brunch, i have to admit i didnt feel guilty that i wasnt out there walking or running the 10k i did however have a uneasy and nervous feeling.
To my surprise i got a call after only a few hours to say the the gang were on their final kilometer of the race – they were flying through it!
I was so proud watching the group of them cross the finishing line, each and every one of them did a fantastic job as for most it was their first event like this, a few hours of selflessness came to this epic conclusion and seeing the smile on my sisters face with her own pride at completing the challenge she set herself is a moment that is imbedded in my mind! Amber ran the 10k, to many it might not seem like a big deal and although the pace wasnt fast she still ran it! It was only 5 months ago when she was receiving treatment to help her walk again after a serious operation.
At this stage it was visibly obvious that Amber was completely done in so after a brief pits-stop for some food my husband gave her a piggy back back to their house so she could get some rest.
On Sunday my sister pushed herself to the max and we had no idea what was going to unfold over the next 48 hours.
Once home my sister went for a shower before getting into bed, during the shower her legs gave out causing her to fall and twist her body, it took her partner and i to get her out the bath and dressed and my husband to lift her into bed where she settled and began to manage the aches and pains.
Through Sunday night and into Monday she started to deteriorate and was in more and more pain, by late Monday the decision was made to take her into hospital. When the paramedics were moving Amber it was the first time in the whole period of her being ill that she showed some vulnerability, she couldnt hide the pain she was in and she screamed through pain.
We all thought we were going to loose her and she has since openly said she thought it was her ending but in typical form she has fought and pushed herself because she has more to give.
After an extensive amount of tests and x-rays we were told the extent of her injuries – 3 broken ribs, 6 stress fractures including one in her spine in a lower disc and 2 broken toes. On top of the fractures her white blood count was worryingly low if you dont know what this means then basically its your white blood cells that fight infection the lower the count the more prone you are to infection and you suffer side symptoms on top of this, as a cancer patient this is a very serious situation to be in.
Pride to me is watching my sister fight back from what looked to be a situation with a bad end not only once but twice, pride to me is watching her perform a selfless act to raise money for charity knowing that she would suffer greatly after it.
Thankfully today she has turned a corner and her white cell count is coming up and she is in less pain than previously – i am so proud of her!
Sadly the long term future isnt going to change for us but the world has her for a while longer and she has so much more to complete that will make us more proud of her and of herself. I will always be proud of my sister, not only for raising money, being positive but for never loosing the will to fight!
Pride is my sister.

Hey My name is Amber and most of you know me as the sister of Jay @Jhalmitt. I was going to start a blog and just post random rubbish on it but truth be told i couldnt be bothered so Jay said i can guest blog here, and here i am!

There isnt a lot to say other than here are 100 facts that i doubt you will know about me!

 

  1. I was 3 and a half weeks premature.
  2. I was a vegetarian from the age of 12 -25.
  3. I am a grade 9 piano player, my Dad starting to teach me around my 3rd birthday
  4. I have never been on a diet! Luckily i am naturally slim and i watch what i eat and do yoga and running when i could in the past.
  5. I was raised Catholic, however at 16 i started to practice a combination of Tibetan Buddhism and Hinduism. When i left Catholic school at 18 i practiced them fully.
  6. I bought my first property at 22, at 24 i sold it and bought a house and now i own a house with my wife.
  7. I can and will eat almost anything except Milk, whipped  cream and sweet and sour chinese food – its all just wrong.
  8. My favourite cocktail is a french martini closely followed by a strawberry Caproska.
  9. I am allergic to quinine.
  10. I hate white wine, Red all the way! I only drink white wine when im already pissed and cant taste anything.
  11. I hate Justin Bieber, i swear he is half woman and full lesbian! His world domination is not necessary.
  12. Redbull makes my teeth hurt.
  13. I wear my watch on my left wrist.
  14. My favourite colour is green.
  15. My middle name is sunshine and friends and family call me Sunny.
  16. When i go to bed over tired i end up sucking my right thumb without realising im doing it!
  17. If i am alone at night i have to listen to a audiobook to get to sleep or i will be awake all night.
  18. My first ever car was a beat up Nova that cost me £210 – i crashed it three days later.
  19. I see emotions in colour, if i am angry i literally see red!
  20. I was trained as a classical singer from the age of 8 to 18 through school.
  21. I am generally a very private person, it takes a lot for me to trust you!
  22. My favourite sport is snowboarding, followed by surfing.
  23. My proudest moment was graduating and hearing my parents whooping during the presentation.
  24. I cant decide if i like or hate guinness, its a taste i just dont get!
  25. I was tested for a photographic memory, i have one.
  26. I am dyslexic.
  27. When i was last tested my IQ was 143.
  28. I never eat the crust of my pizza, it fills me up and i miss out on the good stuff.
  29. I pride myself on always being positive regardless of how difficult a situation may be!
  30. I have never ever smoked – i really hate it!
  31. When i was 4 i wanted to be a bin man because they only worked one day a week (think about it).
  32. It has always been my dream to settle down and have a family, haing a family was always my greatest wish.
  33. I love art! I always have a sketch book with me, i especially like drawing people.
  34. I used to teach a yoga class twice a week and all the money that i made went to the village i volunteered at in Tibet.
  35. I need things to be in even numbers, ideally 4 of something or i get stressed.
  36. I love the smell of Christmas – you know exactly what i mean.
  37. Christmas is my favourite time of the year.
  38. I sleep on the right side of the bed when your laying in it and i lay on my left hand side facing the middle of the bed.
  39. I married my dream woman.
  40. Im living on borrowed time and im actually ok with that!
  41. I dont fancy butch women – remind me too much of men! Gad.
  42. I knew i was gay from the age of 13.
  43. I have webbed toes on my  right foot only.
  44. Thongs – i dont get them! God didnt create ass cracks to wedge material up it!
  45. I cant drink orange juice with bits, i dont like bits in my mouth (behave).
  46. I am happy.
  47. I graduated with 2:1 honours.
  48. My favourite kids movie is the little mermaid.
  49. Chilli Heatwave Doritos are my downfall! I can do a whole share bag in 4 minutes.
  50. I prefer McDonalds to Burger King, its all about the strange sauce!
  51. I didnt know how to play Sudoku until i started chemo last year.
  52. The only part of me that is tickly is my right hip bone.
  53. I got onto come dine with me but i couldnt do it because of work.
  54. Lemonade sends me hyper (doesnt matter if its full fat or diet)
  55. My favourite TV show is The L Word, i have all the box sets and i watch them over and over.
  56. I love BBQd vegetables.
  57. My worst habit is tapping my hands and feet all the time, i tend to not know im doing it!
  58. Everyone has my respect until they lie to me.
  59. I dont like my handwriting.
  60. My favourite opera is Carmen, ive seen it 12 times.
  61. Potatoes annoy me, i cant eat them whole they have to be mashed or at least crushed.
  62. I brush my teeth 4 times a day, ill admit that its a obsession!
  63. I have no feeling on my left elbow, i fell on a fire-pit when i was 6 and the feeling never came back. I didnt scar.
  64. My karaoke song is Walk This Way by aerosmith and Run DMC.
  65. My favourite numbers are 4 and 16 (4×4)
  66. Im ok with being terminal, its made me appreciate all the things i woulnt have necessarily have had i been full health.
  67. Before i got sick i was considering joining the army so i could work and travel.
  68. My name in Sankrit means “The Sky” but i was named it after Forever Amber. Sunshine came because the day i was born was the first sunny day in a while = The Sky Sunny.
  69. I have and always have had the ability to sleep anywhere.
  70. I have a triangle tattooed on the inner tip of my wedding finger.
  71. Sushi is my favourite food! Every and any type.
  72. I am learning japanese as a hobby.
  73. I drive a Mini Cooper S that i bought brand new last summer.
  74. Bar being home my favourite place in the world is Tibet.
  75. I always and still love the smell of CK BE perfume, i remember when they were £125 a bottle!
  76. I cant work Blackberrys, makes Twapping Fiona impossible!
  77. I did ballet with my sister from the age of 3-12 however i only did Swan Lake once. I got stage fright and cried.
  78. I can walk on my hands.
  79. I adore Enid Blyton books! As a child my parents used to read the Secret Seven to me at night.
  80. I am boring myself writing this.
  81. I love red peppers, they are my favourite snack.
  82. I loved my job, i never had a bad day.
  83. I sleep with 2 pillows, the bottom one is positioned properly the second is  at a angle and i bend my arm back after it!
  84. Live jazz music makes me very happy, especially in a cocktail bar!
  85. The first CD single i ever bought was Dont Cry For Me Argentina by Madonna. When i was 3 i saved the tokens from the sun and paid £1.99 and bought the Vinyl single of Jason Donovan – Joseph and his technicoloured dream coat.
  86. My golf handicap is +2.
  87. I was at the birth of my nephew, im thankful to have been involved.
  88. I only ever write in black pen. We have to at work for legal documentation and it is a habit i dont break.
  89. I love gardening! I find it relaxing and i geek out a bit by learning the long names of the plants.
  90. I wear glasses when i read and when im driving.
  91. I have a lower than average resting heartbeat.
  92. When i was younger i played snare in a pipe band.
  93. My earliets memory is my first birthday sitting in the garden pulling the candles out the cake and my mum trying to take my photo.
  94. I want to Marry Jillian Michaels.
  95. When i was 5 i ate so much beetroot (that i shouldn’t have been eating) that i peed and pood red for 9 days.
  96. My favourite stand up is Stamie Karakasidis.
  97. I only like thin crust/base on my pizza.
  98. Kid singers on talent shows piss me off, especially when they cry!
  99. I was once a extra on eastenders after winning a competition, When the show was aired all you saw was my hand!
  100. Ive not achieved my goal in life. Yet.

For the first time in a while i am actually alone, taking a moment in my bedroom before i get dressed to go and join the Royal Wedding celebration that has been going on since before 1pm this afternoon.

As most of you know ive been working behind the scenes all week working on the royal wedding coverage. To say it was hard work is a understatement and it was filled with its highs and lows.
Right now, although i am physically and mentally tired i am on a high because all the teams hard work pulled off and im starting to feel quite good about myself and the job i did.

However, if it wasnt for some people i would have caved days ago and it wouldnt have ended so well, so here is a thanks to you guys that have helped.

Alex, Dani, Keith, Sean, Russell, Sophia, Paula, Evelyn and Andy or The Twitter crew – thank you for your words online that kept me going when i just wanted to curl up in bed and give up.

Dan – Thank you for relaxing me when i thought i was which probably resulted in me getting the result i needed the other day.

Vanessa, Vince, Will and Lav – Thank you for giving me a huge opportunity that i wont ever forget. The trust you shared in me i will treasure! The experience i gained working with you will stay with me and i will use on a daily basis.

Alos – i dont need to tell you why i thank you.

Vicky – You know why i thank you! You have gone out your way this week to keep in touch and to encourage me with humor and care. Your the only person i know who will stay on hold for 15min why i talk business. I dont consider you a friend, i conciser you a real friend. Your care and love has blown me away. Fish and chips are on me!

My family:

Mum, Amber, Fiona, Auntie Sus, Bridgette, Hex, Hannah and Bubs – You all have shown me so much love the last few weeks i feel i could never repay you. All your text and emails from the last 24 hours have touched me and i genuinely feel loved.

Leo – you put up with phone calls at all times of the night and morning, you have supported and encouraged me to achieve what i potentially can in life and thats something i will love you forever for. If it wasnt for you i wouldnt be the person i am today, i would be lost.

Xavier – for being perfect and making me smile every time i look at you.

All of you, i thank with all my heart.

If you are a regular reader of my blog you will know i have real issue with food! Ive tried to look after myself for years now, by eating well working out and researching the different ways food can effect your body.

Naturally im a slim build, i am 5ft 9+(i seem to fluctuate between 9 and 10″), i have a low fat store but i have muscle and i try and average 120-125lbs and it has me comfortably in a UK size 8.

Because i do know a lot now about health and fitness in both aspects of working out and diet i have a lot of friends who come and ask for a advice and who i work out with.

With the summer coming in EVERYONE is on a diet, people are trying to start working out and im constantly hearing “im going to….” Fair play to people, but why dont you try and eat well through the whole year? You wont have the tres of “i only have 3 weeks till this wedding” “im going on holiday in 2 weeks and im 6lbs heavier than i was last year” and with that they crash diet!

Simple fact is – crash diets dont work! You can eat weight watchers meals and snacks every day and they wont help you loose weight! Here are 2 facts that will probably prevent you eating low fat ready meals and products!

Weight Watchers low fat bread – Contains a product which is made from ground duck feathers.

Low Fat ready made meals– Contain a thickening agent to bulk out the meal and make you fuller for longer…..its actually a GMO product – the same product that wallpaper paste is made from, (yes your eating wallpaper paste!)

Been put off yet?

I started using a website called My Fitness they have a app that you download and you can input what you eat, drink, workout etc and with your statistics it works out what your daily recommended calorie intake should be and keeps track of your intake and out goings. You can add your friends and randoms, and this gives you a incentive like going to a slimming club – and its all free!

I have a issue here though, i see people asking questions in the forum and look at peoples food diaries and they complain about eating “healthier” foods and they have either put weight on, feel bloated, havent lost anything or only lost 1 or 2 pounds…… and the reason simply is – they are eating food that are advertised as “healthy” but they are not at all!

Oven chips – yes healthier than chips you fry but you cant forget that they have already been deep fried before they have been frozen and the freezing process is chemically induced! Again ready meals, they contain extreme amounts of sodium which makes you bloated and dehydrated.

Personally i am a great believer in eating natural produce! I very rarely eat processed foods! Dont get me wrong i love a good kebab and a chinese like the next person but its moderation and you can make healthy choices when doing this. I recently asked on twitter about peoples meat eating habits, i was shocked to learn that not one person ever has a meal that doesnt contain some from of meat. Your meat might not look processed but it will be! Supermarkets are the cheapest place to by meat in this economy – because they strike deals with farms and buy in bulk, Tesco to name one brand actually own approx 9% of the farms in the UK now simply to give these meats at a low cost. Tesco value meat is pumped with hormones, sodium, brine etc.

My daily intake is 85-90% made up of fresh fruit and vegetables! I eat a lot of fish and rarely eat red meat. Here are some screen shots from my MyFitness page, first one today’s so far…

As you can see from today ive not eaten any main meat source but i have still gained Carbs, fats, and protein’s which you do need to live! My lunch today was this…..

Pretty nice looking even if i say so myself! It took me 20 minutes to make! A lot of you will say “i dont have 20 min to stand and make all that, i have to get out to work” etc. 20 minutes and i made that and i prepped this…

There are enough peppers, tomato and avacado there to make 2 pittas and still have peppers left over for another meal. Whats happened to us as a nation and as the world to make things for our selves?? Its just another reason why the race as humans are getting fat!

Standing chopping, stirring, mixing, kneading in a kitchen burns calories! Back in the old days almost everyone grew their own produce if not all some! Convenience is literally killing us.

loyd grossman, everyone knows him from the 90’s being the presenter of Masterchef and the voice of Through The Key Hole, now he makes sauces! I was in a rush to cook a thai green curry for friends recently and because we were moving didnt our usual homemade mix in the freezer so i was reduced to buying 3 of his sauces to feed 7 people. The cost of buying the sauces alone came to over £5, for £5 i have since made enough thai green curry sauce to make 6 3 people portions thats double! The same people have eaten both and preferred the home made one because its fresher and more authentic and lets face it when you compare the sodium intake from both the home made one is a staggering 24% less.

Here are more examples of what ive been eating…

To diet you need to remember these simple steps.

  • Dont just count your calories, look at your fat, carb and protein in take.
  • You cannot loose weight by diet alone – it just doesnt work and you get hungry and snack on all the bad things.
  • Moderation, you can have a treat but it cant be once a day!
  • You have to burn 3500 calories to loose 1lb, listen to the word “burn” it means you have to work it off not starve it off!

Once you have lost the weight and your maintaining yourself or building muscle remember and change your eating habits. Keep eating the good stuff but you will have to balance out your calorie to work out balance so you will have to eat more!

Diets dont have to be chores its simply all about choices! If you eat fresh you will be fresh – its as simple as that!